Something good has to come around...
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Yesterday I was depressed after the final day or tryouts and I was like 100% sure I wouldn't make it...anyways though this morning I went off to read who made it and unlucky #37 was on the list...omg my number!! YAY I made it and I was sooo happy all day today. JV(Junior Varsity) here I come! I know I've always wanted to cheer and I finally got what I wanted, so tonight I'll be at some meeting if you call...arg I'm so excited!

-You think you have something, but you already lost it in a blink of an eye. So many wishes you make for that one thing, but you know inside that your wish is so impossible. Months ago you thought everything would be okay and perfectly fine, minute by minute you have more hope growing inside. Snap of a finger goes your life into that black pit waiting for the light to seep back through.  Hidden in the dark, your no more seen and the hope you once had gets dissolved in that bright sunny light.  Grasp for the plug, pull in the light, your spirit is free and happyness never seemed so close.  That one wish had found its star and slowly came down to you.  Together at last, and unseprable things couldn't ever get any better than this-

Cheerleading tryouts were today and they pretty much sucked, I only know half the dance and the final tryout is tomorrow.(I'm screwed) Well I most likely won't make it because I suck that bad, so Ive planned to go take gymnastics for a year so I can learn how to do stunts and back handsprings.(Friggen impossible right now)
Today I did something very stupid, but I've finally snapped for the last time. I still love him and I don't think he does anymore. He says he does but its so hard to believe after a second time. You can't draw me in again like you did before, I don't want to be the stupid girl that falls for it to easy. But I'll always remember those long conversations, Ive always felt so specail when I talked to you. I wish things could have worked out better than this. It shouldn't be this way, I should be where I want to be, and should be where I belong. So many crazy thoughts are going through me head..what should I do before I fall off the edge.
 -Love bites ur ass before you know it. All people are the same so I've learned- 

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I hoped this wouldn't come...

Somethings wrong with me seriously, and I havn't found out what yet. Nobody is perfect I know, but I just want somebody to care about. Lately I've been fine, and again though, I fell into that dark black pit. Sure I still hate it here, it shouldn't be worth hateing anymore because I should just get over it. everyday is the same again, every persons eyes look right through me. I mean what is it with me? I want a chance to live a life with happy happy joy joy. Truth is I barely had it in North Carolina either untill I met someone. My life did change and I learned to care about somebody a whole lot, but I guess there is a downside to everything. About every secret I found out about, I became the worse person. Sneaky and pissed off all the time. You all know me, I'm shy and happy, nice but I don't want to become some stupid depressed b**** twenty-four seven. All I've won back is my family, they are the only thing i have now and its what I'm going to have to have for a very long time. Life has not yet found its purpose to me and its driving me nuts.  All is hurt hurt hurt, no bright rainbow away from the rainy sidewalk.

I hope life is going good for all of you!!

Cheyenne *The Girl Everyone Had Forgotten*

When things go wrong shove ur head in a pillow...

Today I was tanning and having fun doing it, I'm getting darker each minute..but my face is still white...It looks odd...lol anyways xanga has gotten old for me over the past two years about..I think? All it does is start stuff that I havn't wanted to hear and so forth. Nobody even looks at my site anymore so I doubt its worth it, thats why I don't really put up entries anymore.  The only reason I did put them was to express my feelings...but that made me look like a drama queen...and over exagerated and I don't want people to think that of me.  I'm still single too, and I could care less about any guy coming along the road.  Make like worth it while you can, before you have the last of it. Home is far away, but I'll make what I have worth the time! Things get better when you least expect them, and I finally have some really good friends, and days are different.  It's exactly what I wanted when I got here, some people to get to know!

School coundown: 23 days

You know I love you, I loved you all along, I miss you, far away for far to long

How long will it be before you completley forget me...

Today I looked up the clouds, laying out in the sun...thinking of how funny life is. The people you love forget you, even your own family...things fall apart all the time. My cat ran away, and she hasn't come home, my heart is slowing down, friends move on, the guy you love is happy and its what you wanted, but then again...what about me, what about those other people who are slowly putting you out of their memories, and slowly becoming unhappy...thats not what you want.  Think about what you have, breathe the air you do, take every moment like it was you last.  Smile forever, be happy and forget those little things in life that put you down, besides what else do you got to lose.

Anyways I'm soooo excited about this summer, and well Alyse is coming I CAN'T WAIT!!My best budd i miss soo much and I can't wait to do crazy things like we used to. *Two peas in a pod* This summer is coming so slowly, btu I'm counting down the days for it to come. ~7~ more weeks to go!!

I'm happier than I was before, but still upset. I shouldn't let those stupid things let me down. My grandparents were over here spring break, and well my grandpa wanted to talk to me. Even though it has been a while now since I moved here, he told me it will take a while to get used to, and very hard to get used to. As dramatic as I seem, I can't help it if I'm missing all of you!!

Cheerleading tryouts are soon and I'm so worried, Ive been practicing so hard getting ready for it. *Wish me luck*

*RememberMe_WhenImGone*